The Pilot ... Connecting the dots backwards

 Hi, 

 I never really got the idea behind naming the first of anything as Pilot !

What are we expecting out of it ... to make the `thing` fly and touch the sky.

Anyway, this is my first blog (hence named Pilot), and I really don't know what to mention about. 

I am a programmer by profession and it has been almost 7 years now, programming for money. 

But I often ask myself, if it hasn't been for money, would I have ever touched a computer?

Do I really enjoy programming, do I really like to command a computer to do stuff for me and feel that sense of superiority in doing so ! I guess I do enjoy that sense of Power!

But then another question pops-up in my popcorn container mind, that if its really all about the sense of Power over a computer ... am I really a power hungry person.. well I guess not, because in my current organisation, I am just another contributor. I don't lead a team, I don't manage people. I get paid for writing good, bug-free code and ship the required features under the deadlines.

But if I connect the dots backwards, way way backwards, when I was first introduced to computers in 2003, at my father's office, I was blown away ... I really loved the idea of what a computer can do. I was able to play games, make powerpoint slides about me and my life, take b/w printouts of images and colour them afterwards, the possibilities were endless to a 7 year old kid. I was not sure then if I really wanted to be a software engineer per se, but I really wanted a personal computer and that too as soon as possible. 

But as for all good things that takes time, this too took almost 5 years of patience and yearning, when finally in 2008, I got my first laptop. Lenovo Y410. It was a class in its own way back then, and was almost my father's 2 month's salary worth.

Later on, I did go to an Engineering college, and I did study Computer Science and Engineering. Again that college education was tight on my father's pocket and he happily sacrificed that for my bright future. 

Now, coming back to the question.. do I really enjoy programming? I think I do, not because it pays well, but because it keeps me sane. I was the kind of kid who would run circles in school ground way back in my kindergarten days, just because I was bored. Programming never bores anyone! that's for sure. 

I just need to refocus my attention to the lost love for the Art of Programming.

I really don't know how things will go from here, but we all gotta start somewhere , someday. 

This blog is not a seek for attention blog, but more of a daily digital journal for me. 

I do write with my own hands in a hardcover journal, but why not maintain another digital version of my thought chest !

Sayonara !