Would you rather !

 

I have a disease that does not let me handle to much mental stress for a long period of time, it breaks me!

And since the world works on the concept of Money, and with time one has to earn more and more of it, I often end up asking myself that will I be able to handle the stress that the next level demands?

Or should I watch myself roll into the stigma of not rising up to my potential just because I will break at the top!

I had always been afraid of success, not because of the joy it brings and again I won't be able to handle that side of life's coin, because the disease doesn't let me be in joyous state for too long too, but because what if the responsibilities and pressure that success brings with itself will be unbearable to me.

 Life is all about ironies, I learnt this the hard way. You get something when you were not even thinking about having it in your life and when your aspire, persevere and work hard towards something so much that it becomes secondary to breathing, life doesn't give you that thing in return. This doesn't happens always, to everyone. But it sure as hell happens to a lot of people at least once in their lives.

The attached image of Tilandi campsite in Brahmatal trek reminds me of what life offered me when I was not even thinking about it, a mental peace and reignited love for nature's simplicity. When I was neck deep in Mumbai's life, a routine life, the rat race... a break from it made me realize that money well spent also matters as much  as money well earned. Additionally, a cut-off from internet and social media and reconnecting with people in real life is what makes us Humans.

Had it not been about money and societal pressure, I would have become a writer and a traveler. I am a writer in a way today also, where I write instructions to a computer to execute something for me, and I am a traveler because thankfully my job allows me to work remotely. But to be able to write stories and poems while being on a constant travel mode, that would have been a refreshing experience. 

Now the question for the reader is, would you rather chase your heart's hunger and live as a young heart forever or would you rather live upto the demands of society and live as an ageing heart.